nursing school.

there is so much i wish i could say, describe, get out, but i just don’t have the time.

nursing school is great. for the first time in my life, i’m exactly the person i want to be, unafraid, unashamed and fearless. i know without a shadow of doubt that i am exactly where God wants me. maybe that’s what elicits such strong confidence and personality.

nursing school, even after 7 days, is hard. i read until i fall asleep, and then spend my drives thinking and going over my notes in my head. it’s a continual process of learning and applying. I check radial pulses on every person who walks through the house. so…if you’re around me soon, i’ll probably check yours. :) i might even check your lungs if i have my stethoscope.

trying to keep my head up and keep paddling. it’s going to be a long road ahead, but the outcome is worth it. :)

this is a video one of my professor’s shared the first day of class. it’s pretty accurate.

P.S. I totally danced across my yard like she does. :)

courageous.

have you ever heard a song and part of the lyrics resonated within you? and then you had to search to find out what song it was because you’d never heard it before?

that’s the story behind how i found this song.

We were made to be courageous
We were made to lead the way
We could be the generation
That finally breaks the chains
We were made to be courageous
We were made to be courageous

We were warriors on the front lines
Standing, unafraid
But now we’re watchers on the sidelines
While our families slip away

Where are you, men of courage?
You were made for so much more
Let the pounding of our hearts cry
We will serve the Lord

We were made to be courageous
And we’re taking back the fight
We were made to be courageous
And it starts with us tonight

The only way we’ll ever stand
Is on our knees with lifted hands
Make us courageous
Lord, make us courageous

This is our resolution
Our answer to the call
We will love our wives and children
We refuse to let them fall

We will reignite the passion
That we buried deep inside
May the watchers become warriors

Let the men of God arise

We were made to be courageous
And we’re taking back the fight
We were made to be courageous
And it starts with us tonight

The only way we’ll ever stand
Is on our knees with lifted hands
Make us courageous
Lord, make us courageous

Seek justice
Love mercy
Walk humbly with your God

In the war of the mind
I will make my stand
In the battle of the heart
And the battle of the hand

“courageous”. Casting Crowns.

things i love.

i love the fact that when i put tybug in the car to run an errand he very adamantly says “sit by me, coley! sit by me pleeease?” and i do. every time. i’ve gotten tybug to say “chauffeur nanny” a couple of times. we think it’s really funny.

i also love that at any given time during a ride with tybug he says “kisses, coley. kisses.”

i love that i can go to waffle house with tybug, ethan and avery (my three favorite guys in the whole world) and we all order mickey mouse waffles because tyler does.

i love the love that tybug has for me and i for him. i love that this weekend was just what i needed.

Orientation.

Yesterday I had my nursing school orientation. It was a very loooong day. I woke up at 5:15 yesterday morning and didn’t get home until after 6:00. Yuck. Unfortunately, though, when school actually starts my days will pretty much always look like that, with the addition of the ALL the studying I’ll have to muster the energy to do.

I absolutely LOVE the atmosphere at GBCN. The professors already know my name. I introduced myself yesterday morning, and in the afternoon they called me by name. (I didn’t even have my name tag on. :) I spoke with several nurses from the senior class and all of them, while honest about nursing school being the hardest thing you’ll probably ever do in your life, were also so encouraging. I am already so blessed to have established relationships with some of them. I also recognized a girl from Berry who transferred there and is now a senior nurse. I loved getting to chat about Berry.

There were two moments yesterday that I think I could’ve passed out. The first being when I walked outside to see the lunch that was being served. It was boiled hamburgers and hotdogs. Umm…I don’t even like meat that much, but boiled meat is my least favorite way to eat it, ever. GROSS. Needless to say, I was so thankful for the bag of Multi-grain Cheerios in my purse. The second moment, that one was a doozy. When I had looked up the book list a few weeks ago, I learned that my books were going to cost around $800. Expensive, but “it could be worse,” I thought. Yeahhh…when I received the final book list yesterday when the professors were going over it, total bookstore cost was $1800. Thankfully, I can get all of my books on Amazon for $1400. Still jaw-dropping expensive. Telling my parents was a very interesting conversation.

“hey mom and dad, i got the total for my book costs today.”

“oh yeah, what’s the damage?”

“well, you might want to sit down. we’re talking over a thousand dollars.”

silence. that’s what i got for a good minute.

then we laughed, because what else can you do? oh yeah, that’s not including the $300 I spent on a stethoscope, my scrubs, white coat, or the $100 shoes I have yet to buy, the blood pressure cuff I still need to get and some other miscellaneous things. Aye-yai-yai.

Yesterday was wonderful. The next two years will be difficult, yet also rewarding.

I’m trying to soak up my free time in the next week or so, because after school begins free time won’t exist until December.

Here we go…

need your prayers.

my dear friends, danielle and matt’s dear friends, becca and adam, had a sweet, precious baby boy last week, Caden Stanley. Caden was born with some heart complications. You can follow the story and read all about it on their blog.

tomorrow is a big day for Caden Stanley. he is having open heart surgery.

and i need your prayer that God would be with him, keep his little heart and body strong. i need your prayers for peace for becca and adam. i need your prayer for the surgeon and staff that will be operating on sweet, baby boy.

this situation overwhelms me, and i don’t even know becca (or adam) that well. but, the God that created little Caden is also the same God that hung the stars, knows the number of hairs on my head, and lives inside of each of us. so i know that Caden is in perfect care.

please join me in praying for this little boy and his family.

 

unexpected blessing.

Since I began my second summer class, sometime in mid-June, and found out that I was accepted into Mercer’s nursing program, my life has been a whirlwind. My to-do lists are constantly growing. I have one off-day a week, and I greatly look forward to it. It’s one of my only opportunities to sleep in, a.k.a., until 8. (boo, for not being someone who can sleep past 7.5-8 hours of sleep.)

Thankfully, I finished one of my classes on Monday. One down, One to go. Clap. Clap. (I just said that like I was cheering. Thank you, seventh grade cheerleading squad.) This week, I have been more productive than the past three weeks combined. PTL!

So, this morning when I went to leave to go to work at 7:15, I noticed my tire looked flat. I went back inside to pull my dad’s air compressor out to put some air in it when I noticed that my tire was actually coming apart. awesome. Thus became my unexpected blessing: I had a day off. I could work on my to-do list. Breathe for a second. and relax.

So thankful for today.

Live Like This.

Could we live like Your grace is stronger than all our faults and failures?

Could we live like Your love is deeper than our hearts could fathom?

Could we live like this? Could we live like Your name is higher than every other power?

Could we live like Your ways are wiser than our understanding?

Could we like like this?

Yes.

 

lyrics from Matt Redman’s song “We Could Change The World”.